i told her that i will make a bucket list.

although it was a flippant answer, i think it's kinda a reflection of what i really will do.

i don't know, sometimes, i just feel that not knowing that you are going to die is better. but then knowing that you are going to die soon could give you and your family and friends time to prepare for your passing. 

serene used to tell me that she has a short lifeline on her palm, so she's only going to live until around 30 to 40. and i have a long lifeline that is very deep, which means i get to live to a ripe old age. 

but is it really true? this kind of palm-reading stuff?

i don't want to believe in it. because i find it depressing that i will live to a ripe old age. truth be told, i would rather die young. 

anyway, it was just a thought. 

3x3eunt.