I remember liying praying for me once to allow me to go on the path that best suits me. I had wanted to go ntu psychology, so i was really disappointed when i didn't get in and i asked her why her prayers were so unspecific. It was quite hilarious thinking of it now coz i was shrieking over my failure to get into ntu. but that was last year. 

This year, i have embarked on completely new paths and had so little confidence in what i was doing, frequently just blundering through and hoping i'd get the structures of my assignments correct. 

I have learnt to be more tolerant thanks to a certain someone (not in a good way, but that's a topic for another blog), and I don't know, but I just feel that everyone has grew up in their own way.

I was standing at cottlesloe beach the other day while waiting for the girls to finish bathing, and i watched this couple in their wedding finery taking pictures by the beach. It was really romantic, and i joked about making my future husband fly me down just to take these kind of pictures to stef. 

And i remembered thinking that everything is soo peaceful. And i finally felt at peace for once this semester. 

To think, i almost didn't go to the beach because something happened and i was soo depressed for that one whole day. but i'm glad i went. I had a great time and our surprise party was a total success. 

and now, on to my rants. 

oh my gosh can?!! when my housemate was telling me about the examinations, as he was trying to be helpful (which he was), i started panicking. all the stuff that he was talking about, i had no clear idea of what to do about it, and i'm just so worried. 

It's gotten so that i misheard everything that people has been asking me or talking to me about. like just now, when i was talking to another housemate, i already misheard him twice in the span of one hour. i think it's just that my brain cannot process anything else at the moment, and i really desire to do well for myself but i have no idea what to do and what to write. It's really really scary. 

Alright, i shall stop panicking now. Relax and study and gosh?!!! ugh!! it's not exactly working!!!

Anyway, i will stop panicking eventually. Yes! i am not trying to convince myself. i'm truly convinced. 

3x3eunt.