but i'm finding it increasingly hard. 

things are never within my control. 

there is no aspect of my life that i am confident in, except for my family. 

i know this sounds like i'm belittling my friends. but i'm not. 

i am just profoundly aware that while we might be close now, as we amble off into our own path, as all of us are doing now, we will drift apart. perhaps, we already have drifted apart. 

suffice it to say i don't have a high confidence of my life right now. 

3x3eunt.